Panic Attack
I am beginning to get twitchy
now. The boys and I will leave the hotel
about 11 tonight for flight to UK
at 2am. I am stressed because I am not
really ready – have sorted most of the stuff in the hotel and left lists of
things that the others will need to do in my absence – but I haven’t even
decided which case to take and as for packing – it will happen sometime between
tea with Cem’s mum this afternoon and starting the barbecue tonight.
I am also stressed because I don’t
like flying. This is something which
surfaced in my late twenties – around the time I had children and has got worse
since. Actually, if you saw me for most of the flight you would think I was
pretty calm and even a bit of turbulence once we are up doesn’t bother me too much
but I LOATHE take off. Funnily enough I
have a guest in the hotel at the moment and she is just the same. We were discussing how paranoid we get at any
changes in engine noise, how bad we feel when the plane banks, how we get so
tense you would think we were flying the plane!
I have tried web sites that describe what is happening when the sounds
change or the pilot does certain things and they do help for a short time but I
think I need a refresher course. For
now, I will be the one on tonight’s flight with my fingers in my ears and my
eyes squeezed tight shut! I have some
herbal ‘kalms’ tablets but am actually thinking that a couple of whiskies
before we leave for the airport might work better.
Emre has been for his second exam
this morning. He said it went OK – he
generally does think things have gone OK – and as it’s a month before the
results come out we can forget it for now.
He had his ‘lucky’ chocolate with him (prayed on by Cem’s auntie – last
week it was a banana but that went a bit soggy).
I went shopping with Kaan yesterday
in Fethiye for a few presents. I was
pleasantly surprised by the lovely gifts available now in Fethiye – you used to
have to go to Göcek for good presents (catering to the yachty crowd, Göcek
though smaller has always been posher than Fethiye) but now there are some
gorgeous scarves, ceramics, textiles and just silly trinkets. And there is The Soap Lady – who has
apparently been established in Ölüdeniz for a while but has recently opened in
Fethiye selling natural soaps with benefits for all manner of
complaints….carrot soap for sunburn, grape seed soap for wrinkles, rose soap
for blackheads etc.
So, I might blog from UK but will be
back here into the madness of July (80+ guests in the hotel and heat of 40
degrees and more). And a propos of
nothing at all I had to take a picture of this plant – which I think is an aloe
– which I pass as I drive to the hotel every morning (yes progressed from 2
wheels to 4 very noisy ones) and which is just spectacular…
